Thursday, September 8, 2011

Just a number

Its scary how fast summer comes and goes. In a blink of an eye, its over. This past tuesday, I started my first class for graduate school. As scary as I thought, it was okay. It wasnt too terrible. The next class will be even better. I started to think, hmm.. this graduate school thing might not be as bad as it sounds.

Ever just feel like a small fish in the ocean? I feel like I'm just a number, no one cares who you are. you pay all this money for people not to care about you and just to get a piece of paper. I guess when you are getting your Masters, you're supposed to fend for yourself. I'm not the first to in this program to or be getting this degree. Advisors are supposed to lead you and provide answers to questions, however, they dont even know your name. (yes, even after multiple emails and phone calls and meetings). Sometimes, I wonder why they even have a job. In any case, this program isnt too organized but we'll see how it goes. I'm sure the classes will be interesting and I'll meet a lot of cool people.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Powerless for 43 hours

Hurricane Irene hit the east coast this weekend. I personally didnt blieve it was going to make a huge dent in the tristate area, more so NY/Long Island. Stores and restaurants all around shut down starting Saturday early afternoon. The buzz and hype about Irene was incredible. Supermarkets were cleaned out, gas stations were out of gas, the world seemed like it was really ending!There was slight drizzle and rain until about 9pm Saturday. The rain started to come down around 10pm, which is also when the winds started. I was playing mahjong with the family and around 230am, the power went out. We waited and waited and waited... power at my sisters went out around 5am and they live 2 miles away. Sunday morning, the sky had cleared a bit but still no power. Roads were closed, trees were down, parks were flooded, and traffic lights were out. We ended up making breakfast/lunch on a gas grill and might I say, it was damn delicious. We made cha siew fried rice, miso soup, chapaghetti, and instant noodles. Monday morning, the skies looked so clear and cloudless it looked like Irene never touched us. Monday afternoon, still no power! This was starting to get a bit absurd. After dinner tonight around 9PM, the power FINALLY was back! I have never been so happy see electricity. All in all, we made it through and everyone is safe.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Are you happy?

A friend asked me earlier this week if I was content with my life. I wasnt quite sure how to answer. Being that we were both abroad for so long, no one else could really understand what it was like to come home. Luckily for me, my family is great. I was able to really gain a new and better perspective on what family really meant to me. One of the biggest mistakes that I am still regretful to this day, is something I cant look passed. I do have to take responsiblity for the mistake but this mistake took two. In any case, I thought about her question for a bit before I answered. I'm extremely content with where I am with my family. Socially, I could be doing better but its definitely improved a lot since last year so I'm def happy about that. Academically and profesionally... theres still a lot I need to work on. Essentially, I just want to do what I love.. its just a matter of turning that into a business or a career. In terms of relationships and romance... I cant complain. I mean no matter what happens and who you end up with... you have to love yourself and be happy witho yourself before you can be happy with someone else.

BrunoMars says it best... (Today My Life Begins)

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

In Search of the Perfect French Fry

In an order of french fries, how many do you have to eat before you find the perfect fry? And sometimes, you dont find one at all...

Monday, May 23, 2011

cute overload

Recently, I feel like i've been surrounded by babies. Not that its a bad thing but I feel like its making me grow up so fast. Hell, I dont even have a boyfriend to be able to think about marriage yet babies are everywhere i look! I love my nephew and hes the cutest bundle of joy ever but I know way toooo much. There are some things that should stay between the mother, father, and baby... Either way, I love infants way too much! Very excited that my friends and my sisters friends have a few more babies on the way. :) On another note, child photography is extremely hard. one out of ever twenty pictures is perfect. just gotta keep at it. I wish my creative eye was a bit better and i just had more motivation to work at it. I randomly found a friends blog and its a photojournal of the end of his college days, army days and events of his life. A photo a day is his theme and its definitely not easy. Time just flies and you dont even know where time goes. A year is quick in photos... - well said but def an understatement. sometimes i wish i could just slow time down and just freeze the good times. anyway, enough debbie downer talk... memorial day is almost here! lets keep our fingers crossed for the warm weather.

i'll leave with you this cute face :)
From Basi's Photobook Month 0-7

Monday, May 16, 2011

one day

I thought i had it figured out by now.... in fact, i really have nothing figured out. time after time, i keep hoping and wishing and it all just keeps crashing down on me. I feel like i just dont have any hope anymore. I've finally decided to move on with everything. I'm no longer looking for anything. That doesnt mean i dont long for that special someone to spend my life with but i'm done searching. one day... he'll find me.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

learning to crawl

the big 25... its almost like learning to walk all over again. its half way through my 25th year and so much has happened. 5 months ago, I passed my PHR, one of the bigger accomplishments of my life. I'm an actual professional! well, anyway... ever since the test, travel has been a huge part of my life. Ive been fortnate enough to be traveling all over the place. Within the last five and a half months, i've been to the east, west and back. all of this includes Japan, Taiwan, Thailand, Switzerland/Italy, Lake Tahoe, and London... with a few more on the way. I've decided to live 25 big, make it memorable. So far, it definitely has been memorable and i've definitely had good times, along with some pretty crazy times. Both crazy bad and both crazy good. hopefully the next 6 months will be better than the first.

i've tried so long to turn over a new leaf and move on. life has been kind of messy for the last 6+ months. So many people have come and gone in my life. a good friend had always said, "i believe that people enter into your life for a reason, they're there to serve a purpose". Some are there to teach you a lesson, some are there to show love and support, and some stay for a very long time. I'm so used to getting hurt so often in the last few months that it just doesnt even hurt anymore. i'm so numb and all i want is to feel again. [taio cruz - feel again]

i'm working on myself, improving myself, improving long lasting friendships and family relationships. i wanna be better, and stronger. [taio cruz - i can be] life doenst come easy and this is just another chapter that i need to close out and move forward with. so this is my declaration... i'm done being second, i'm done being used, i'm done being a back up... its time to set my own goals and find my priorities. hopefully one day, someone will come into my life and their goals and priorities will be in line with mine. time to be me.


Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I found Matterhorn!

Traveling on Valentines day has started to become a tradition. Not only do you not have to deal with busy restaurants and finding something to do, but great excuse not to feel bad about it! Besides, you have 364 days to show your love. Last year, I was in Vancouver for 2010 Winter Olympics and this year, I decided to fly to Switzerland. I must say, it was a quick decision to go but wouldnt change the world for it. Met some really awesome people that can actually board! Hard to find nowadays, ya know. After 8 days of coldcuts for breakfast, I'm ready to go back to my bacon egg and cheese on a crossiant! Unfortunately, first day at Matterhorn was not so great. Very narrow and slightly crowded. However, the next few days made up for it. We found some amazing off trails with a TON of powder. Boarding over to Italy was pretty awesome and just as vast, however, very cloudy and we werent able to see too much. Anyway, I'll let the pictures do the talking :)

zurich by night

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


why do people have so much pride? i get that pride makes you proud, makes you confident but when it really comes down to it, do you really need it? lets strip away all the pride for a second and lets be real... pride doesn't make you who you are.